I guess I've been absent here because I've been feeling a bit better and have been able to contain the b!tch in me a bit better lately. But let's not kid anyone, she still has her moments!
For example, I was not very nice to my sister the other day, who left her busy work day to come over and watch the girls so I could run an errand. I ended up getting a little frustrated with her and told her she was pouting like my ex used to do! Not cool, especially when she's helping me out. To my weak defense, I sometimes feel like I'd rather not have help and support from a family member if it comes with a price tag of having to accept all the footprints of them walking over me. I ended up apologizing to her a few days later, and we are fine now. Made me realize though that I am a completely selfish person.
And then on to the biggest target of my b!tchiness - ExSpouse. He told me several weeks back that he would be coming in to town to see the girls for the holidays, "Most definitely!". Now he is avoiding me. I know full well that he is not coming, and lacks the balls to tell me such. I know his excuse will be that airline tickets are too expensive, and everyone should feel bad for him that he can't see his kids. Newsflash! The holidays come the same time every.single.year. He could have purchased tickets months in advance. I feel like calling his bluff and telling him that the kids want to purchase him a ticket to come visit for the holidays as their present to him. Would LOVE to hear his response to that one, since I know the real reason he can't see them over the holidays is that he wants to spend the time with his new love. I'm working hard at turning the anger that wants to boil up inside me into feelings of sorrow for him instead.
Heard from a friend recently, whose ex cheated on her and left the marriage, that karma is alive and well. Her ex remarried, and much to his dismay, his new wife cheated on him and left. Here's hoping that karma comes around these parts!
