Groundhog's Day

It was a very rough day for me emotionally. I think back to thus time last year, and I'm afraid I have not healed, I have not grown, I have not made any strides forward. I'm stuck in a past that I don't want to be stuck in anymore. But I don't know how to move forward, how to simply "get over it". I'm a crying wreck tonight. Maybe I'll have my thoughts sorted out in a few days and will try and explain what's going through my head. I just know I don't want to be dubbed "the girl who never got over being dumped" for so many reasons.

Jeopardy

Oh Internet world, I have so much to b!tch about and get off my chest. Maybe another day. For now, let's play a little Jeopardy, shall we?

Category: Co-parenting
Answer: 23 days

What's the question?

I'm Baaaacckk!

The B!tch is back, baby!  I've been trying to hold her back, but she's here.  No denying she's around.  I found out a year ago about the cheating, and I can't help but have memories run through my head.  It's hard!  I was doing so well for so long, and then bam!  I feel like I've taking several steps backwards and I'm not nearly as healed as I'd hoped to be.  I keep thinking of a million and one things I would like to say to him, as if all these memories flooding through my head are making me feel raw all over again.  Doesn't help that he's coming in for a very quick visit this coming weekend.  I just want to be over this and I wish that I never had to deal with him ever, ever again.  Divorce with kids truly is hell, because you never can get away from that ex.  You have to have a "relationship" with the ex for the rest of your life.  Ughh.

On to some other random thought.  I'm home with the kids today because the nanny called in sick and I don't have back up.  And he just got back from another tropical vacation.  At least I'm not dealing with a peeling nose from the sun.  And better yet, I get to receive hugs and kisses from the little ones every day.

I'll close with this........I completely randomly came across this quote today.  Made me think I should get his girlfriend a flea collar for Christmas. :)

"Those who sleep with dogs will rise with fleas." - Italian Proverb